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I've had more FAILURES than successes, that is unless
you consider putting forth a lot of effort and disregarding failure as something bad...Well, then, I've had a lot of success...
I appreciate good health and I enjoy exercising and
eating well...I enjoy pushing myself...And I enjoy rising when I fall...I cherish truth and honesty and perseverence.
GOD has told me to add PATIENCE to this list...
My tastes are varied. In almost everything
I do and experience, I have a multi-disciplined approach. I see every situation for it's serious-ness as well as its
hilarious absurdity. Which brings me to sweets: I eat junk food very seldomly, but when I do...Let's just
say I ate 12 KRISPY KREMES in 6 minutes, once. Then I had a creme-filled a few minutes later because I was "hungry"...
I can be STOIC AND COMPASSIONATE... I choose
to see what good can come out of even the worst of circumstances. But I can also can be misunderstood for being pessimistic
because I see the reality in things--but most don't see the positive flavor I dose into the formula. The perceptions
of others are mostly out of my control. All I can do is be honest and strive to communicate better...
I can be a DORK and not have any problems with this...Don't
believe what they say about you, good or bad, neither are likely to be true--YOU know what is true. PEOPLE MATTER--WHAT
THEY SAY DOES NOT.
If you discover you don't know yourself--Slow
down, eliminate your distractions and sedations and start asking questions. Serve. Love. Find someone you
can trust--REALLY TRUST--Ask for their help. Ask now...
The most important thing I have learned in the past
ten years is to ASK QUESTIONS. It changes everything. For the good.
I like octupus(s), rats, roaches, crows, rhinos,
chameleons, monkeys, sparrows, elephants, some ducks and most dogs. But the octopus is my current favorite, it is so
underrated. Most people go through life not realizing that THE OCTOPUS IS A MOLLUSK! (and that it has a beak)...Look
it up...I also love corn.
I don't care much for most of the programming on
TV...But I like to watch Pro Football and non-fiction programming. Biographies are great, every single one of the "NEWS"
channels seems to be a joke (as is most of "Reality TV"). The Simpsons, The Dog Whisperer and Dinner For Five are solid...Mr.
Meaty is hilarious. You really can't beat Spongebob Squarepants (what is not to like?)... I like some of the documentary
programming on Discovery, National Geographic, HBO, etc... I'm not one of those "TV is the devil!" types...Frankly,
I wish I could watch MORE television. I believe it's a great tool, but with all the books I want to read and
projects I enjoy doing, it's hard to justify even the "good" things.
Life is a balancing act. If anything, I run the risk of destroying myself
by doing too many "righteous" things. Just because it's good, it doesn't make it right. I have to remind
myself all of the time that, "IF YOU SAY YES TO ONE THING, YOU ARE SAYING NO TO SOMETHING ELSE."
Which brings me to books. Wow. Have you been to a library or a book
store lately? How about the internet? It's a bit overwhelming. I read mostly non-fiction. I believe
life inspires art, therefore I like to go to the source:
SOME OF MY FAVORITE BOOKS INCLUDE
Catcher In The Rye
The Bible
Oh, The Places You Will Go
The Giving Tree
Stargirl
Go Ask Alice
The Ragamuffin Gospel
Freakonomics
Step Back From The Exit
When it comes to music, I like a little bit
of everything (minus most rap and country--I can tolerate some Johnny Cash). I prefer film scores and until I was in
college, it was the only type of music I owned...
Some bands that grab me are; Simon And Garfunkel,
The Red Hot Chili Peppers, Vanessa Carlton, System of a Down, Sara Groves, Tool, and The Presidents of the United States of
America. As you can see, it's a pretty diverse sense of taste. Actually, until iTunes, I could hardly find an
album by ANYONE where I liked more than 1 or 2 pieces...
In general, music that moves me is usually dramatic
and powerful...Very repetitive, moody. When I hear the right music--I see pictures and they do not stop...
SOME OF MY FAVORITE FILMS INCLUDE
Rocky
Fight Club
Forrest Gump
Seven
Dumb & Dumber
Raising Arizona
Sllingblade
American
Beauty
Gummo
Into the Wild
Starman
Napoleon Dynamite
Buffalo 66
Falling
Down
Planes, Trains & Automobiles
The Passion Of The Christ
More (animated short)
The Corporation (documentary)
The Smashing Machine (documentary)
and
Patch Adams
ANY MANTRAS?
Follow God, not the world. Be yourself, not like everyone
else. EMBRACE HOPE--NOT FEAR... And once you put it into action, you will realize LOVE DOES CONQUER ALL -- this
will be the day your life changes forever.
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WHAT ARE YOU ?
I find a great deal of satisfaction from being an agent
of "change". I like the word, "catalyst"...then again, a catalyst doesn't change--And I do. A rebellious
changing catalyst? I've met a few people who have played the role of catalyst in my life and just recently realized
it's a lot of what I'm all about...Whether it be provoking thought, making laughter, inspiring someone to stand up for themselves,
love themselves, love someone else or just recognize that they have value in who they uniquely are...BEING YOURSELF IS AN
ACCOMPLISHMENT IN THIS AGE OF ROBOTIC MARKETPLACE CONFORMISM...
I cherish instilling hope in the fearful, steering
the lost through crisis, or helping a giant fat person lose a few pounds (or a couple a 100). This has become even more
rewarding because I believe it falls within my purpose, which has been made clear to me.
Assisting someone in an emotional crisis and helping
them step toward, peace, sobriety, relief, and purposeful life is a passion that often involves relating to others through
my own shortcomings and failures. Is there nothing more exciting than a transformation or a resurrection?...I'm a junkie
for these things...
HOW DO OTHERS DESCRIBE YOU?
HOW DO YOU DESCRIBE YOU?
Cavalier - Obtuse - Demonstrative - Wry
Verbal - Compulsive - Honest - Analytical
Passionate - Sincere -
Trustworthy - Hopeful
Relentless - Hyper
- Logical - Inspiring
Stubborn - Silly - Calm - Weird
MY "DAY" JOB
"THE TRUTH" is simply a lesson learned. I am no better than anyone
else. I am logical and solution oriented. I want to be compassionate and good. Telling the truth works. I can grow and choose more efficiently when I'm not lying to the world...Or myself.
And that's what this
is all about...My unusual job...More
accurately, it's a rank and file job (that happens to be very interesting and stereotypical) which I carry it out in an unorthodox
fashion. I'm actually successful. More accurately again, I succeed
at preventing failure in the occupation...I am an unusual individual who does the job in an unusual way.
I tolerate and guide people. I assist those who are lost and confused and have been living poorly programmed lives.
There are times when I try to deter
people from killing themselves--Or me. The definitions of right and wrong appear to be very blurry to
most of the people I meet throughout my work day. Some willingly choose bad because it feels good... There are
other times that I get to intervene
in a crisis and illustrate to people how it is that they matter...Even if it's only to me. I am sincere. Some
of the best work I've done happens because I am honest and deliver the truth. I deliver unwelcome news on
a daily basis. This delivery backfires when the person I am dealing with perceives that I am not being honest.
This rarely happens. Love does conquer all. Not gooey-goo love, but true compassion. The golden rule is
gold for a reason.
This mis-perception can and is usually rectified. I express love in places most people
feel is unwarranted. If I ended up where
I work... I
want to meet me... To thank me... To test me...
I try to live an uncensored
life--This evolves from true 'liberation'. It is really all there is, because
after you grab yourself with a pair of tweezers and crawl under the shadow of a microscope--you get to see some of what God sees.
At the moment you experience this, you realize the secrets and the hiding are uselsess...Pointless. Life stealing. Wrong.
Which is exactly why I'm here.
I was recently asked,
WHO WOULD YOU LIKE TO MEET?
"MY ANSWER"
A dozen grapefruits and their smell.
My daughter's smile.
The hurt, getting well.
The high bar, without denial.
The daily hand from the Lord.
A purposeful life.
His bloody gift I cannot afford.
The smooth fur on my dog's back.
Love...with my wife.
The mirror before I attack.
WHO DO YOU ADMIRE--WHO ARE YOUR HEROES?
I 'm not sure about heroes...Or awards...Or lop-sided
recognition. I struggle and go back and forth on these issues...Either there are no such things as heroes or every single
person is a hero...I haven't figured this out yet--But I'm pretty sure it's one of those two things. The reality is that
most of us had to rely on someone to accomplish whatever it is we've accomplished. I suppose I feel that "heroes" are
those people who do the right thing regardless of the consequences (or accolades). We play the hand we're dealt with honesty, integrity, ferocity and most of all LOVE. Fairness is pretty
much a silly concept. Ask yourself, "What is fair?" The pursuit of comfort is pretty much the same. Satisfaction
in service, growth, purpose and peace...Those are the goals.
If you have to push me as to who I admire for how
they've handled things, here is a short list: Jesus, my wife, my daughter, Kurt Warner, Walter Payton, Lyle Alzado,
Warrick Dunn, James Braddock, Buster Douglas, Mickey Ward, Mark David Allen and my dogs, Risko and Sugar. Why so
many athletes? Jeez, I suppose that's pretty sad. Or is it?... I also admire anyone else that has lost it all, admitted their faults, and
risen from the ashes of their own self destruction...And then there are those who've wanted to rise
up and tried with all of their might and failed boldly. There's a special place for those people. I am first in
line.
THE FINAL QUESTION
Q: If you take one item on a trip--what is it?
A: Rubber Tomahawk.
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